Dancing Leaves

You gave it all away the first and second time

Twice broken

And now you refuse to let it be mine

Time and time again I gave myself to you

Hoping in futility yet knowing what was true

There are no happy endings

No kisses in goodbye

All that remains is a hollow echo

Etched in my mind

Your essence dances around me

Like leaves in the wind

All that remains is a memory of what has been

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You were supposed to be my friend

Promised to be by my side until the very end

Told me you didn’t deal in lies

And could tell he was full of alibis

I understood why we couldn’t be close

For losing your job you feared the most

Said you knew your boss was crazy

Things at work were getting real hazy

Said it would probably be a while

Before we could drink wine together, laugh, and smile

But in my heart I would always know

You were close and would never go

But the day you left I’ll never forget

A premonition, something I’d bet

You blocked me on facebook

And that was all it took

To realize the things you’re after

Aren’t good karma, love, and laughter

But the things you most desire

You are hoping will only make you higher

For you want things that I once had

You think that they will make you glad

But drugs, fame, and money

Will not make your life sunny

You might seem happy or numb for a while

But these things alone will not make you smile

But either way what I know is true

You’re a good friend, but only to you

I still hope for you the best

Even though you’re like all the rest

But we will never be friends again

For we are all alone in the end.

Jessica Bethany

A beautiful girl, mother, family, friend

Taken too early, But it’s not the end

Her spirit lives on in the lives that she’s touched

Loved ones that cry for her and miss her so much

Focus on the good life she lived

All the beauty she brought and the things that she did

The way her smile lit up a room

Think about these things and hope to see her again soon

In a life so much better, one after this

Beautiful and whole, where you can give her a kiss

For nothing can take away this pain

Or bring back the life that was slain

All we can do is remember to love

And know that she is looking down from up above

A beautiful girl, mother, family, friend

Taken too early, But it’s not the end

Shattered Images

You threw the mirror and the glass broke

Laughed at me and called me a joke

The image I once had shattered

Broken pieces and nothing else mattered

Started out with a comment here and another one there

Said I was getting fatter and you didn’t like the color of my hair

Slowly your words ate at my soul

Then they started to take their toll

For you find pleasure in your evil ways

Had me walking around in a daze

Which way is up, and where do I turn?

I just want to be happy and loved; that’s all that I yearn

Never did anything right by your expectations

You were always full of accusations

Always having to prove my love and loyalty

The whole time you were running around joyfully

Your words sunk in and you clawed at my heart

All you wanted was to tear me apart

Cut me wide open with that piece of shattered glass

Breaking Down Walls

Come on girls, let’s find our voices

We deserve to be treated better, let’s make wiser choices

For I’m no different, I’ve been where you are

Broken, stripped, and wishing on stars

Thinking that this is just how things go

Besides no one else will ever know

But the truth is we are so much more than this

We’re longing for loving affection and a kiss

But our reality is soon shattered

For our spirits are broken and our bodies battered

For he tore you down until you were zero

And all we are looking for is a hero

But the hero resides inside of you

Look deep inside and you’ll know it’s true

There’s a tiny voice begging to be free

I know it because it’s talking to me

The voice whispers that something isn’t right

There has to be more to love than fights

Sure, there are some things that keep you around

It’s enough to feel like you might not drown

A glimmer of hope, maybe he’s changed

But honey, it’s our thoughts that need rearranged

For things aren’t going to get better, they’ll only get worse

For you think it’s bad now when he’ll scream, throw, and curse

For he’s taken everything; you’re dignity, your self love, and pride

Run girl! Run and hide!

For soon it might be too late

So let us not tempt fate

Get out as quick as you can

For he will never be a man

The things you are hoping for

Are not ever in store

Whether it’s physical, emotional, or mental abuse

It doesn’t have any use

In our lives anymore

So let us hurry and shut that door

It’s time to stand up on our own

Let’s find a safe place; where we can call home.

Joy

I find it in the sunshine

With the sand between my toes

I find it in the rain

Because it causes flowers to grow

I find it in a baby’s smile

And on a puppy’s breath

Dancing in the grocery story

Or performing as Lady McBeth

The color red

It always sends shivers down my spine

That first moment when I wake up

And the moments when I shine

No matter what I’ll always have

The joy that life brings

It’s drumming on the steering wheel

And all that makes me sing

It’s these little magic moments

And nothing can take them from me

It’s God’s grace

And causing me to see

That every step upon this earth

Makes me realize that I’m blessed

To make every second count

And live my life with zest

No one can rob that from me

So whatever life extends

I’m grateful for all God’s blessings

And I’ll praise Him until the end

A void

You don’t even miss me at all

You don’t text or call

It’s as if I’m easy to replace

And you don’t miss my face

That’s the pain that hurts the most

Is I still have your ghost

Haunting me every day

Yet you have nothing to say

Did I mean nil to you?

Was what we had not true?

I loved you more than any other

And I was hoping there would never be another

You don’t even miss me at all

You don’t text or call

It’s as if I’m easy to replace

And you don’t miss my face

You pretended that you cared

And we had lots of things we shared

But now you’ve wiped me out

And of that I have no doubt

I feel so blue without you

And I thought you might feel it too

But I guess it’s time we move on

And I realize that you’re gone

You don’t even miss me at all

You don’t text or call

It’s as if I’m easy to replace

And you don’t miss my face